counting her cards

there's a spot on her cheek

an ash perhaps

a mere smudge she's not aware of

we all see it so

quietly, i tell her


turning suddenly she wipes it clean

erasing any embarrtassment

and returns to the task at hand

counting her cards


circles below our eyes

declare that morning is near

as the factory waits tomorrow

day shift of all days and

we can't call out again or

we'll be let go for good


the lights fade as the sun rises

warning about duties as

it shows the disheveled house


i stretch out on the floor wondering

what it could be like to share her bed

i hear her turn off the water and

close her door


a pronounced decisive click

birds welcome morning

i blow out the last candle as

the house grows quiet with

Bob on the couch and

Dave in the recliner and

me on the floor and

my love in her bed

i second guess her thoughts as

i hear her shuffle

counting her cards.





douglas brent smith


sometimes we wander

sometimes by chance

by luck or by design

we find real people

moving along matching lines

cruise to connecting music

smile at marvelous magic


sometimes we stumble

onto a carnival of dreams

so mellow and alive

so easy and free

yes, sometimes we wander with love

waiting eagerly




douglas brent smith


 

lover, still

that sudden electricity

which you so innocently offered

without pretense or guilt

(a day we both remember)

   then, carefully

took away

reverberates within that part

of us that we cannot control

and

returns with dreams veiled over

and keeps a steady hold


if by some chance you choose to chase

another's amorous embrace

remember there're no secrets now

i see it in your face


you know i'll never force a smile

or make it something new

but if my love is not enough

it's still my gift to you.





douglas brent smith



 

Top Hat Journey

Drawing: Top Hat Journey

 

Drawing: Top Hat Journey, by douglas brent smith

from Journal #7, The Eclectic Trance Dance, 1974

inseparable

with bold looks we

invented invisible affairs

unspoken yet more obvious

as each melody played and 

each game unfurled


dare we touch? or

would that break the spell?


transcending normal expectations

for a time

any arrangement anything was possible


like a floating shimmery bubble

fragile then

gone.





douglas brent smith

 

impermanence

if i should doubt

by cycles or by cynics

the tones which you deliver

or cause by asking over

a few absurdist questions

please know by all that matters

and by all that ever stands

i want so much for lastingness

that i faulter as a man


if you should see

by vision or submission

a hidden part of me

or realize that in my eyes

exists a bit of scandal

please observe all perspectives

and by all you understand

i try so much for lastingness

that i stumble as a man




douglas brent smith

 

her little breaths

her little breaths outnumber mine

her sleep seems far more sound

our areas indistinctly marked

are shared like common ground


the graceful moves of daylight hours

give in to those of evening

the beauty seems to be, we know

that neither soon is leaving


her little breaths outnumber mine

i count them all, each one divine.





douglas brent smith

 

prepare to fall

thunder over the cliff

it's such a ruckus you never can miss

selling rain for a nickel and a dollar a kiss

step right over the peak




douglas brent smith

 

about you

something sincere about you

nurtures honesty

open; childlike, free

so few ever knew

such fearless listening


something warm about you

presses the passion in me

with clenching senses, loving

exceeding even love


something radiant within you

soothingly sends comfort

assurance, confidence, calm

distinctively grounded with you

only you


so much special in total about you

levels beyond my understanding

but firmly with the grasp

of my appreciation and wonder and awe

not on a pedestal

something removed from any gaze

unassailably you





douglas brent smith

 

consolation

let's hear it for sublimation

the savior of Freudian man

what we're lacking in sex

we can use in subtext

to create an artistic piece


let's cheer for our insomnia

the sour grapes of night

when we can't close our eyes

we'll create a surprise

a fine aesthetic feast


hooray for our anxiety

motivation for modern souls

when we all get the shakes

we/ve got what it takes

to seek a constructive release


let's celebrate our problems

even as we sing the blues

up or out it's a turn

so we might as well learn

the best direction to choose




douglas brent smith

 

a few changes

you can't explain the way

things want to turn out

it won't help to turn them

repeatedly about

all we can do now

is move with the turns

and if we're really up to it

we live, we love, we learn





douglas brent smith 

forgotten melody

mirrors on the fallen snow

reflecting where you'd like to go

and what you'd be if you could know

the narrative that makes it so


windows in the sky with eyes

exposing soporific lies

and passionless dramatic sighs

whispering goodbye


there's no fortune bright enough to make you

and there's no moonbeam light enough to take you

or any hammer strong enough to break you

unless you start it all alone


doors that lead to empty rooms

welcoming as wood tombs

promising the end of gloom

not all what you'd assume




douglas brent smith 1974/2023 

missing some

as most ends will see

all ends will be

as the darkness covers you

the nightfall sets you free


free when you'e glistening

clenched as i'm listening

to your many timbres toning

replies to our inquiries


coherent co-developed

carefully enveloped

touched with out finger prints

missing annotations




douglas brent smith