Study for the set design for "The Mysteries of Love" by douglas brent smith
So far, this play has not been written.
misunderstanding
that valentine's day
i sent flowers to
two people was not
the first time even though
it carried more drama and
it was not because i
could not decide but because i
did not feel the need to
love either any less but because you
did not see it that way
once discovered it
did not turn out quite as i
expected
are you still angry?
douglas brent smith
counting her cards
there's a spot on her cheek
an ash perhaps
a mere smudge she's not aware of
we all see it so
quietly, i tell her
turning suddenly she wipes it clean
erasing any embarrtassment
and returns to the task at hand
counting her cards
circles below our eyes
declare that morning is near
as the factory waits tomorrow
day shift of all days and
we can't call out again or
we'll be let go for good
the lights fade as the sun rises
warning about duties as
it shows the disheveled house
i stretch out on the floor wondering
what it could be like to share her bed
i hear her turn off the water and
close her door
a pronounced decisive click
birds welcome morning
i blow out the last candle as
the house grows quiet with
Bob on the couch and
Dave in the recliner and
me on the floor and
my love in her bed
i second guess her thoughts as
i hear her shuffle
counting her cards.
douglas brent smith
sometimes we wander
sometimes by chance
by luck or by design
we find real people
moving along matching lines
cruise to connecting music
smile at marvelous magic
sometimes we stumble
onto a carnival of dreams
so mellow and alive
so easy and free
yes, sometimes we wander with love
waiting eagerly
douglas brent smith
lover, still
that sudden electricity
which you so innocently offered
without pretense or guilt
(a day we both remember)
then, carefully
took away
reverberates within that part
of us that we cannot control
and
returns with dreams veiled over
and keeps a steady hold
if by some chance you choose to chase
another's amorous embrace
remember there're no secrets now
i see it in your face
you know i'll never force a smile
or make it something new
but if my love is not enough
it's still my gift to you.
douglas brent smith
Top Hat Journey
Drawing: Top Hat Journey, by douglas brent smith
from Journal #7, The Eclectic Trance Dance, 1974
inseparable
with bold looks we
invented invisible affairs
unspoken yet more obvious
as each melody played and
each game unfurled
dare we touch? or
would that break the spell?
transcending normal expectations
for a time
any arrangement anything was possible
like a floating shimmery bubble
fragile then
gone.
douglas brent smith
impermanence
if i should doubt
by cycles or by cynics
the tones which you deliver
or cause by asking over
a few absurdist questions
please know by all that matters
and by all that ever stands
i want so much for lastingness
that i faulter as a man
if you should see
by vision or submission
a hidden part of me
or realize that in my eyes
exists a bit of scandal
please observe all perspectives
and by all you understand
i try so much for lastingness
that i stumble as a man
douglas brent smith
her little breaths
her little breaths outnumber mine
her sleep seems far more sound
our areas indistinctly marked
are shared like common ground
the graceful moves of daylight hours
give in to those of evening
the beauty seems to be, we know
that neither soon is leaving
her little breaths outnumber mine
i count them all, each one divine.
douglas brent smith
prepare to fall
thunder over the cliff
it's such a ruckus you never can miss
selling rain for a nickel and a dollar a kiss
step right over the peak
douglas brent smith
about you
something sincere about you
nurtures honesty
open; childlike, free
so few ever knew
such fearless listening
something warm about you
presses the passion in me
with clenching senses, loving
exceeding even love
something radiant within you
soothingly sends comfort
assurance, confidence, calm
distinctively grounded with you
only you
so much special in total about you
levels beyond my understanding
but firmly with the grasp
of my appreciation and wonder and awe
not on a pedestal
something removed from any gaze
unassailably you
douglas brent smith
consolation
let's hear it for sublimation
the savior of Freudian man
what we're lacking in sex
we can use in subtext
to create an artistic piece
let's cheer for our insomnia
the sour grapes of night
when we can't close our eyes
we'll create a surprise
a fine aesthetic feast
hooray for our anxiety
motivation for modern souls
when we all get the shakes
we/ve got what it takes
to seek a constructive release
let's celebrate our problems
even as we sing the blues
up or out it's a turn
so we might as well learn
the best direction to choose
douglas brent smith
a few changes
you can't explain the way
things want to turn out
it won't help to turn them
repeatedly about
all we can do now
is move with the turns
and if we're really up to it
we live, we love, we learn
douglas brent smith
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