douglas brent smith

Indulgence #1

Photograph: douglas brent smith (c) 2016
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even with the world falling apart
all i can think about
is keeping us together is
bringing us together doing over
chances to choose love that
endures purely forming storms
of passion, not disappointment
and pleasures we'd treasure
not measure against impossible pondering

such notions preoccupy me even
as you chasten me to
let go of them and declare
we're over that

we're on the same page on
so many things singing similar
songs yet wrongly irregular
on this
i must (don't judge)
simply kiss
you again.

again this. a kiss you and me
and see where this
leads us. and please,
trust me on this
i have your best interests at heart
and my heart
so full of you
throbs incessantly still

agreed, we see this
differently
and so i'll wait and take
moment by careful moment
time with you until
i'm no longer (we're no longer)
careful and cautious but
dramatically real

how does that feel?

(c) 2016 douglas brent smith

you let go

it was everything i had
inside me
given to you
a gift you
refused, to scare me to
scar me to drop me
over that cliff, that curb
wanting to touch you to kiss you
to giggle in the sand
                                but
you let go of my hand

and oh oh oh you had warned me
the storm would be rough
and wow did you signal
it would not be enough

and crap did it happen
i chased without fear
but ghostlike in vapor
desire disappeared

and so like a dark fog
   neglected to stand
you held and then fell and
   let go of my hand


(c) 2016 douglas brent smith

Tissue Orange Juice

Random still life and current mood.

photo by douglas brent smith

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Way Past Getting Old

mp3 file: Way Past Getting Old

strong

i am powerfully attracted to
strong coffee, strong whiskey
and strong women and
so far
strong coffee has never hurt me
although i may
drown myself in it, to
stay up thru the night
to face the morning
without her

because trying to sleep
is stupid
and trying to get over it
is bad advice

so what's to do?

when the person i'd ask
asks for space?

could i be the strong one
resilient, resolved?
remembering some mysteries
will never be solved

so make me a strong one
with whiskey and black
and i will be waiting
when that woman comes back

-- douglas brent smith (c) 2016

you were there

created 12 march 2012 reality plunges into the murky pools of the mind. it doesn't matter what anyone was thinking because it was fun while it lasted.

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collage: you were there (c) 2016 douglas brent smith

there was a problem in the kitchen

created 12 march 2012 and 10 june 2012

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those times we spent in the kitchen were special and rare but the feast is over and there's nothing but a big mess to clean up.

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collage: there was a problem in the kitchen (c) 2016 douglas brent smith

the beautiful dream

created 12 march 2012 when there was still a hope that this relationship would work. i still like the picture. i still miss that dream. would you like a cup of coffee?

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collage: the beautiful dream (c) 2016 douglas brent smith

tell me what you want to hear

created 12 march 2012

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collage: tell me what you want to hear (c) 2016 douglas brent smith

open for business

created 25 march 2001

i've often toyed with the idea of living in a space that had a store front that could be my studio, theater, coffee house, clubhouse, training center. still working on that idea (but this collage is done!)

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big smile

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collage: (c) 2016 douglas brent smith

trainers get moving

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collage: trainers get moving (c) 2016 douglas brent smith