Lead with love but manage your boundaries.
-- doug smith
Cavalier Club at Large -- collage by douglas brent smith, 1995
From Journal #30, Operation Fresh Start, 1995.
NOTES:
I've owned (or co-owned) four Chevy Cavaliers and loved every single one. I've loved them so much that I even contemplated forming a Cavalier Club -- or maybe finding one that already existed. Such charming little cars. Basic, the last one I owned had wind-up windows. Fun to drive, a bit sporty without being too fast (can a car be too fast?).
My favorite was a blue 1987 station wagon version of a Cavalier. It had an old, permanent smell that was not at all unpleasant. I loved that car and commuting to work in Trevose in that car and it was named Bluebird. Sometimes I would sit in Bluebird and eat my lunch in the parking lot of UFLIC on Street Road.
I was recently in that parking lot again for a gig with CareerTrack and another for the college but I barely recognized the building or the lot because they had changed so much. Still, the vibes were good.
I always love my cars. I'll never have another Cavalier -- GM foolishly stopped manufacturing them (they keep discontinuing their best and most economical cars...) Pleasant memories.
That's a cavalier in the lower right hand corner of the collage.
-- doug
How Is All of this Possible? -- collage by douglas brent smith, 1995. From the journal Operation Fresh Start, 1995.
Have you ever thrown anything away and then regretted it?
i filled a dumpster
no
i filled a dumpster two times and
another dumpster, too
i didn't have permission and they
weren't my dumpsters but
it was always at night and
i wanted some things out of my life
foolishly
books. paintings. collages. tools. and
one really big relationship
deeper than any box
gone
a box filled with memories
set afire.
and no matter how much i dream i
cannot
retrieve that box.
-- douglas brent smith
You Know When It's Cool - sketch by douglas brent smith
Notes:
This is a sketch from one of my journals and as you can tell by the TV, an old one.