douglas brent smith

how do you do it? i'd like to know because it would make it all so much easier it seems to come naturally to you like getting off a bike or combing your hair and you never seem to give it much thought while i can't seem not to how do you do it? because after all this time and so many hard, rough lessons i still have not learned how is it an affliction? is it a choice? befuddled. ruffled. resolute. stuck. tightly held yet no longer held dropped like a rock into a still pond that stays still how do you do it? how do you stop loving someone? -- doug smith 15 July 2019

did i ever tell you that any of that                 mattered or that        holding out hope is what i do best? with your barely open gates closing and your once flirtatious musing silenced you look at me           differently and see another friend                   ending this dance           again ending this           dance again           But, didn't you tell me that you don't dance? -- doug smith

turn the pages quickly; isn't that the sign of a good book? go fast go heady go for the finish have fun be done then run ah, the sign of a good book, a great game and a sad relationship when do you give up? only one right but more rare than caring allows ~ when do you give up? all i senselessly say to that can be never never never never never never never never never never never -- douglas brent smith (c) 2017 douglas brent smith

it was her attempts at perfection that kept perfection away locked up walled in and kept at bay never quite good enough to ever satisfy substantiated reservations proof to deny tell me again why it all had to end no, stop nonsense never bears repeating. -- douglas brent smith (c) 2017 douglas brent smith

she said that she loved me to the moon and back and to the moon and back just got a  whole lot shorter your roundtrip gave me the bends as you closed the portal and swept this sobbing away as love choked gasping on yet another tripping dream and  she never said that what she said didn't mean a thing (c) 2017 douglas brent smith

every couple fights about money about attention about     harmless searing flirtations     temptations, indiscretions and     thoughts every couple fights about passion    and lack of passion about furniture, fixtures, fantasies and    families    all those dysfunctional families and we don't fight about any of that     because we are                    not a couple and we fight about that knowing what i want you    choose to escape and knowing what you want i    senselessly cling    a mess of depressed repression unappealing    stealing every ounce of hope from the air and you repeat (repeat, repeat) that    we are NOT a couple but what about this love? -- douglas brent smith